Today I am grateful for having anxiety.
Yup. You read that right. I am grateful for something that has haunted me for years resulting in sleepless nights, strained relationships, and oh so much more.
I experienced it today in a meeting with a woman who was going over personnel with a new part time job I took up. It wasn't an interview. I had nothing to prove. And still I got a heat flash and almost forgot to breathe.
That's when I remembered to breathe.
Six short breaths. And then it was gone.
So why am I grateful for something like anxiety?
For two reasons.
For one, it reminded me to be more empathetic to everyone because you have no idea what's going on behind closed doors.
And second of all, because the world is full of White Walkers, and unless we find our own dragon glass or Valyrian blades, we become helpless victims to a long, cold winter.
Exercising. Meditating. Breath work. Therapy. Communication. These have been my Valyrian sword to help me in my fight against a personal Long Night.
We all have monsters to slay, and once we find the right tools to fight them, we become stronger than we could have ever possibly imagined.
I am grateful for having monsters, they've turned me into my own hero.